I crave authenticity and honesty and beauty. And just when I think I'm beginning to see a glimmer of it in my life, just when I see shards of Light shining through, the dark clouds of pride and showers of pretending rush in.
( Romans 12:3 ) I strain to see the Rainbow, the promise that He is with me, the reminder of a new beginning, a fresh start. Then I am encouraged and reminded that the glory is His. That's the Christian life, isn't it?
I said that I crave beauty and, as I mentioned in my blog description, that isn't really surprising since I was made to crave The Beauty, the One who makes everything beautiful. The light and the dark spots of life. All of it. Finding beauty in the everyday is part of who I was made to be. Out of this re-realization came a desire to challenge myself, to make this reality even more real to me.
I'm calling it The Fauxtography Project: Our Raw + Real Selves because I wish to capture the essence of this project through the lens of my camera, Mister Nikon, as I call him. Each month I want to feature a photo, or possibly a collection of photos, that will represent a process of change or wanted change in my life. I'm going to be very honest and quite candid about the process of change because I believe that it is so important ( Romans 6 speaks to righteous living and Romans 8 speaks of life in the spirit-- both passages were influential in my thoughts towards this project ). And here's how the word fauxtography will come into play: I want the pictures to be real. No edits. My goal is to become a serious student of my camera over the next several months while this project is ongoing.
I'll be posting on The Fauxtography Project once each month-- when the month and the day are the same. Today is 6.6 and the first posting for the project. My second post will take place on 7.7 and following posts will appear on 8.8, 9.9, 10.10, 11,11 and a final post on 12.12.
I'd love your company along the way and have created a side button of sorts as well as made it possible for you to link your Fauxtography Project here.
( I'll make the side button more legitimate as soon as I have the patience for it. ha! ) I'll leave this link open and available until the second posting on July 7th. Feel free to link your post anytime during the next month. I would thoroughly enjoy seeing how this project takes root in your own heart, whether this project takes you to working on laundry piles, DIY projects, Bible memory, cooking lessons, or whatever. The possibilities are endless. My reason for posting about this project once a month as opposed to every week is that I want each post to be something that comes straight from my heart with much thought put into it, not simply something to throw up each week.
With that said, this ^ is my first Fauxtography Project picture. The settings on my camera were 35mm lens, 1/80 at F 1.8 with ISO 200. This picture represents something so needful for my life: studying God's word. I've been frustrated for a very long time in my pursuit of meeting God in His word. Romans 12: 3 says, "Be honest in your evaluation of yourselves, measuring yourselves by the faith God has given us". So, honesty. Well, perhaps my faith has been so weak for years because I haven't asked for it. Or if I did, I didn't have the faith that God would give it to me. I didn't have the faith that God would give me faith! Ironic.
My husband encouraged me frequently to just choose a book and begin reading. And I would. And a few days later, I would fall behind and become so discouraged. Because that's my personality. I hate to fall behind and so I would call it quits. Several weeks ago, I found myself almost at a breaking point concerning Bible study and knowing God. I talked to Steve about it and he again encouraged me to pray about a book and to just, for crying out loud, read. ( But he was really nice about it! ) I prayed that day that God would bring to mind a book and He gave me the idea for the book of Romans. Along with settling on the book of Romans, I decided to make a collage each day-- to record what God was saying to me through His word. It was amazing. I felt like a new person. The picture above gives you a little insight into what my collages look like. They usually carry one or more main thoughts with several smaller lines of recorded thoughts. The book of Romans has been so thrilling for me and I am sad that I'll be finishing the book this week. I might decide to read it through again before going on to another passage.
Here's the most important thing about this entirely too long post: I am so thankful for the prayers of friends and of my mom. Two ladies, specifically, agreed to pray that God would restore my desire to read God's word. I don't even have to ask my mom because I know she has ben praying. Moms just know these things. More importantly, I'm thankful for a God who answers prayer. If this is the only thing that I gain from this Fauxtography Project, it is complete.
Thank you for reading. Read part two here, part three here, and part four here.