Stories from Here // Part Two

I'm writing this as I stand at my kitchen island. To my left is a large pile of sheets and dirty clothes. Behind me, there are toys scattered everywhere, and in front of me, on the kitchen island, there are piles-- everything from annual anniversary books (this year's has not been given yet, not even written, truthfully) to garden produce that was given to us yesterday morning. 


This morning has been one of those terrible, horrible, no good, very bad mornings. As I stood there brushing my teeth, with my husband's toothbrush because I couldn't find mine-- because two little boys that I know absolutely love with a capital L brushing their teeth, so much so that they take all of the toothbrushes sometimes-- I was overwhelmed. 

How will we ever have another baby? I cannot even handle the two that I have! What about our adoption plans? Will we ever adopt? I'm getting old! Lord, I would love to have another baby! 

And then the same thoughts began cycling through again. 

And in the middle of that recycle, I thought about the sweet couple that had us over for dinner last night. (I want to say this: having a family over for dinner is one of the best gifts you can give to a young mama. I believe that with all of my heart.) Our dinner started off on a wonderful note but it started to quickly unravel as the boys finished their plates. Graeme wanted to run and play. Job wanted out of his highchair and let us know in a matter of fact way by throwing, no, spiking a peach slice straight into the honey mustard chicken tray.

If I remember correctly, I sighed and looked at our host and said bleakly, "I'm so sorry. We are working on that". He was quiet for a moment, which made my nervous heart beat even faster, and then he said, with the kindest smile, "people pay a lot of money for 'spensive dishes like peaches and chicken".

And my tired mama's heart was healed. 

13 comments:

  1. Kirsty Branine2:41 PM

    Ah sweetie, I know just how you feel. You are doing a wonderful job and all those little details will fall into place as you get more settled. Praise the Lord for wonderful people who are understanding and supportive; so glad you have found a place to heal!! =)

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    1. Kirsty,
      Hi! I am so thankful for this place. There was an older couple in our church in Hillsboro that Steve and I loved to death-- and they actually were our contact to the church here! But anyway, I tell people who knew the Galloways, "we're in the land of Paul and Evelyn Galloway". And it's the best thing ever. But I'm also grateful for the encouraging and supportive people that Steve and I have encountered every where that we have lived. I'm thankful that God gives certain individuals the gift of encouragement and I'm extra thankful when I see that gift in use. I've seen it a lot here, specifically. It prods me ask God to give me grace for others when I see someone in need of it.

      p.s. Welcome to Indiana! I hope that things are going well. I know exactly how to pray for you after just going through a moving transition! : ) Love to you!

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    1. Mom,
      You will love these people : )

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  3. As a mom who just broke up 2 fights, got handed a fingerful of wax (what?!), retrieved a small child from on the bookcase & changed 3 poopy diapers in the last 5 minutes (maybe I should rethink the wheat germ/probiotic filled breakfast smoothies?) :) You can totally do 3! After having 2, then 5, then 4 kiddos, we've decided 3 is the most manageable number. haha! Maybe you've read that article circulating about how moms often feel overwhelmed whether they have 1 or 6 kids. It's true. Though I often chuckle at moms of one child complaining on facebook, I have to stop and remind myself that I also was the overwhelmed mom of one at one point. God surely multiplies his grace for every need. I do have the perfect solution for you though, just borrow a couple extra children for a couple of months and then when you go back to just G & J, you'll be amazed at how calm you feel! :)
    And you can totally adopt, but if you have to wait until your own kids are a little older, it will make it that much easier. I have no doubt that God is going to prepare the way in all of this for you!
    I totally agree about the gift of a hospitable dinner!

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    1. Kelly,
      I keep rereading your comment. Thank you so much, friend, for taking the time to write : ) Also, if I announce a pregnancy any time soon, you are partially to blame, haha! : ) No, seriously, you were such an encouragement. And when you talked about adding a few extra children for a while and then realizing the quiet of just two, it totally reminded me of the book "It's Too Noisy"-- a book about a man who couldn't stand the sound of his squeaky wood floor and the noisy leaves falling on the roof. A wise man told him to get a donkey. Then get a cow, a goat, a horse, etc... Then he had to give each of them away. The end of the book says something about how he enjoyed his quiet home, with the gentle noise of the leaves and the comforting sound of the squeaky wood floor : )

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  4. I think Satan hits me with similar circles of thoughts, but I have to recognize them as from the enemy because that is exactly what they are. This is truth: God can give babies to 80-year-olds and virgins and women who were told they'd never have any! He can give strength to the most tired, most weak, most helpless among us (me!)! I usually hate feeling desperate, but I (usually later, ha!) love how it pushes me to be dependent on Him. I think it's sweet to see how, in the midst of a crazy day or week or season, little moments of encouragement, like a kind man at dinner, become such stark evidences of His love. I think it's sweet to see how He's got you, right now, today, where you are, and that He'll have you in the days to come, whatever they bring.

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    1. Shanna,
      Friend, yes. Yes. And sometimes I think there's a little bit of Holy Spirit prodding there, too. Not the negative untruthful thoughts, of course : ) But you know what I mean.

      Also, I saw this verse the other day and it reminded me of this sweet man I talked about, about the stark evidences of God's love that you mentioned-- "When darkness overtakes the godly, light will come busting in." (Psalm 112) I love that.

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  5. Remember, your nesters are little and it will get better, uh, easier as time goes on! I have raised four of our seven sons, leaving me three at home! Not to mention raised one daughter, with six still at home. I am watching my grown children raise their nesters. Same struggles, same mishaps and 'attitudes', if you please, as when they were little. Take heart, it will be a memory way too soon. Enjoy! Remember, God gives us at least 18 years in raising and training our children. From what I hear from your mom-in-law your a great mother! (as my great-aunt once said, "The smaller they are the smaller the problems.")

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    1. Thank you so much for your thoughts! I always enjoy and appreciate hearing from older experienced mamas. Also, that last statement-- "the smaller they are the smaller the problems"-- that totally made me stop in my tracks. Thank you : )

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